Well, if you’ve found my site then it’s safe to assume that either you, or someone you know, is dealing with a chemical abuse/dependency issue. You CAN get better without having to go to inpatient rehab. I was chemically dependent on Ambien to help me sleep since my doctor told me I was “depressed”. I also used valium for pain and xanax/klonopin for anxiety. I’ve developed a plan based on my own personal journey to get my health and life back. The goal of this plan is to help individuals map out their own recovery because everyone is unique and so is their road back to a healthy body, strong mind. Below is a portion of an email I sent to someone I really care about to help encourage them to find their own road to recovery…
“Well, by now if you haven’t used over the past few day or two you are probably starting to feel restless and edgy. It has been documented that just two drinks a day can cause an alcohol dependency. I know exactly what you are feeling because I began having withdrawal symptoms within 24 hours after I quit taking klonopin. You are going to experience an immense amount of psychological and physical pain. It’s up to you…do you want to endure a few weeks or months of uncomfortable withdrawals or continue to use for the rest of your life and be distant from your family and friends? The CHOICE is yours…you don’t have an “addiction” or “disease”. That’s just a cop-out for people who are weak and don’t really “want” to get their life back. I’m stubborn and strong willed…probably more than I should be in most cases. However, those two qualities are the EXACT reason why I was able to keep pushing forward when I felt like I was losing the battle from withdrawals. I thought to myself “Okay, you fucking bitch…let’s see how much pain you can bring because I am NOT backing down”. I won the fight and you can too if you are tough enough. THERE ARE NO QUICK FIXES. There are no pills, shots, medicine, hocus-pocus tricks, short-cuts, or alternative roads to kicking an addiction. It takes determination and focus. Every second will feel like it’s a year. Your body and mind will betray you. Both will “trick” you into thinking that your body needs “just a little bit” of alcohol in order to appease the withdrawal symptoms. That is when your CHOICES (not disease) will kick in and you can choose to continue a life of misery or you can push forward knowing that you will endure pain but will soon be free from addiction.”
I know what you are going through and it SUCKS. Nobody knows how lonely you really are. Suicide is a thought that might be creeping in. You don’t have to endure another second of this immense pain. The CHOICE is yours…get clean and your life back or stay chemically dependent on your drug of choice.
Life is beautiful and I know what I’m talking about. Just a few short years ago and I thought my life was over. I was wrong!
